am i ok? no dice sunshine

[james21]

Well I felt so low that I put some paracetamol in my cola bottle (what could go wrong) well the thing instantly started fizzing then shoot and fizzed all over my room instantly covering my walls ,TV, Computer wardrobe in a thin sticky layer of classic coke.
YUCK panic insured as I started cleaning in a mad hurry to dispose of my accident was I ok? NO DICE my parents burst into my room (how’d they move that fast?) they were going to ask me what all the noise was about but then in like 1 second they saw the carnage that was my bedroom. I was using every excuse but to no avail they saw past my lies and started talking to me for about 3 hours. Ughhhhh

Well now I’m not ok it’s like my heart has been ripped out and I’m a walking corpse zombie.
The normals think I have no feelings (if only they knew it hurts not to be invited ) This time I really wanted to join the normals and pass myself off as one but its like to be normal you have to join an exclusive club and I’m always refused entry.

Sorry just wanted to write my feelings down. this isn’t going to make sense to most people (the normals) but it makes sense to me…I feel soooooooooooooooooooo low

[lostdoll]

Hun, please look after yourself.

As the above said, there's no such thing as normality, nor perfection. But if you're feeling low enough to consider ODing, then go to your GP, have a talk with them and see about getting referred to a counsellor or someone who can listen to you and give you some support. It does wonders to just get things out of your system in a healthy way.

I'm also going to warn you on how dangerous ODing is. It has some really serious consequences. Stay safe in future please, and remember that you have options. There's loads of people to talk to. I'm sure your parents just care (even if they have scared the crap out of you by talking to you for 3 hours - its not the best approach, but its how they show you that they care) and want you to stay safe. RYL is full of supporters, people to listen...just have a look around, and never be afraid to speak up about how you feel. There's also helplines, such as Samaritans who can listen to you any time you feel down.

Stay safe
xo

[Nymphetamine]

Hey I don't have anything I can add to the others, except if you feel like doing it again menthos and coke is apparently rather good...suggest going out in the open air next time ;)


Heh I jest. No one is "normal". The ones who seem the most "normal" to you are probably totally ****ed up completely...they might be like, serial killers or something.

Also cha ODing is not good. Might seem fine to do a little bit sometimes but it builds up to do stupidly painful stuff to you. Like icky painful. And Coke does nasty things to your teeth so not a good combination :p (but cola is soooo good *will probably spend the evening drinking it*)

And walking corpse zombie isn't good. Zombies eat brains which is gross too.

Oh and by the way, I'm stealing "No dice sunshine". It seems a rather awesome phrase to add to my vocabulary!

Stay safe ok? Talking is good.

~Nymph~