Thanks for your replies.
I never do any 'action' to get support, I mean if I'm struggling to the point of taking action people sometimes offer me more support. What I actually mean is just that people don't hear me but they can hear me when I have acted on the men or my mood or whatever. I don't really know how to explain this. It's just like if I say I'm really struggling but I haven't harmed myself then to them I can't be struggling that much. My words mean nothing. It's better with my own CPN she seems to understand more and when she talks to me and acknowledges how I'm feeling I feel more heard. But she might not ever come back to work. I don't want to be passed on to someone else.