Whatever I write here is going to be stupid and pathetic, I just need to talk.
I need people. Kind people in my life, but not too many. I don't want to do anything because that will just sit on top of how I am now and make things overwhelming. I want a hug from someone. I just want to be heard in the here and now. I want everything to be put in place to make my brother's life is secure and a happy one. unidentified things and people are in my head and they're really far away at the moment. This would be the perfect time to kill myself. I wish it was easy. I need my CPN.
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