about the first aid course, the important thing is not that everything goes perfectly. The important thing is to actually go and attempt to try and break this terrible spell of negative thoughts that have spiralled out of control. So what if you can't concentrate for the entire time??? So what if you can't socialise all the time either??? And screw it, if you feel you can't do all that you're told to do!!!! Just try to go anyway. To win this battle, or to at leats get some respite, requires fighting back. Breaking a routine is a good thing. Going a bit beyond your comfort zone is a good thing. Attempting to go against your every instinct that is screaming "I can't do this!!!", is a good thing.
I know it's hard. Things like this are never easy. But please try to go because it will be a good thing you did just for yourself. And you need every small victory.
Don't worry about everything going perfectly okay when you go. Just don't let your fears and your negative thoughts stop you from doing this. Because it is so easy to give in every time, and then the world just becomes increasingly smaller.
I believe in you!!!!
