The CMHT crisis team are finished for the day, the voluntary crisis team are on till 10pm but I don't know if I can find the words to talk to anyone. I'm maybe going to write something for my CPN but I'm almost certain that there will be nothing she can do to help. Me and my brother don't really do talking on the phone. He's not doing too well himself right now so even more than usual I am reluctant to burden him. Things are just hopeless, I can't think of anything that I can add to my life that will change things and I don't want to keep feeling this way over and over again every day. I need a sure method of death, that's all.
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