I agree with Auror. It’s difficult to know how to support you because you make statements like this and then when probed/we ask for further information you either give short sentences that don’t 100% make sense, or change the topic to something else and ignore what others have written ..
Don’t get me wrong, I totally get that when we are in distress it can be difficult to get our points across. But it can get frustrating for all involved when suggestions for how to move forward are given and they are either completely ignored or just have a topic change.
You really need to engage with the support that is around you.