It is pretty offensive to imply the things you did about sex workers. I'm sorry you're struggling. I still don't understand the connection at all though. It might help for you to work on explaining what is going on for you instead of just going to big statement things like "i want to be a sex worker" or "i deserve to be dead" or "i give up." It doesn't really give people information to respond, and it doesn't help you to really express what is going on.
I'm not saying don't post. But I'm saying maybe you need to take the time to really think about what is going on for you and to write out, instead of just saying the big blanket statements like you do.