I think you can still trust yourself. The only times I've occasionally self harmed more recently have also been when I am not super aware of it. So in theory, increasing your awareness / trying to stay more present in the moment even if your emotions are uncomfortable could potentially be useful. I think the technical term for this is called grounding, though I personally always struggle with figuring out what that means.
Unconscious habits are really hard to break, but if you didn't do it intentionally, I don't think you need to be too hard on yourself. It just sounds like maybe you need to work on your awareness with regards to when you're feeling strong emotions so you can learn to safely navigate through them.
Apologies if this is not making much sense it is mostly all stuff that has been explained to me so is secondhand knowledge.
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