[Daydream]

This is what I have so far.



Umm. Hello. It’s April Woods. I wanted to write to you to tell you the things I didn’t get to tell you today (Wednesday) because I was too scared to talk.
About a week ago I was feeling really suicidal, enough to go and taste a certain household chemical to make sure I could swallow it so if or when I feel even worse than I did then I could drink a lot of it. I didn’t actually swallow it and I washed my mouth out straight away so I’m not counting it as self harm. Please don’t tell my mum that I did that though. I keep making plans to kill myself but I keep being too scared to actually do them. I make a date and place and a method and everything, I know that if I feel any worse than I do now, I’ll end up coming out of my house in a body bag. I don’t want that, because it’ll hurt my family. When I’m in these low times, I feel like I don’t want to get better and it can be hard to get rid of these feelings. The low times last for sometimes a couple of hours each time and its sometimes can happen two or three times a day. I don’t know what you can do to help me, I just want anything to help me right now.

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