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Daydream · 13-08-2008, 04:09 PM

I've been to see my psychiatrist today after requesting to see her for the first time in about 6 months. My mum came in with me, and I got too scared to talk. My concentration was a bit off (it hasn't been right for a few weeks now) and I wasn't following a lot of what was said. I got upset when I was following and my psychiatrist said that she wouldn't change my medication so close to college. I was upset because I've been asking for a medication change for ages now, and she put my Risperidone up to 2.5mg a day from 2mg, and I'll take the extra 0.5mg in the morning and the 2mg a bit earlier in the evening than I usually do.

I didn't get to say what was on my mind, and there was a few things I wanted to say. I wanted to tell her that I tasted the [chemical] that I wanted to kill myself with (she doesn't even know I've been feeling really suicidal) and that I keep making plans to kill myself which keep falling through. I didn't end up saying that if things dont change I might end up coming out of my house in a body bag. I wanted also to tell her I want to take up smoking again, just to have something else to rely on rather than my suicidal and self harming thoughts. She did enquire about my sleeping, which I told her wasn't very good, but nothing is being done about that either (unless I'm taking the Risperidone earlier to help me get more sleepy before i get to bed? Maybe).

Is it worth telling her this stuff? Is it important?

13-08-2008, 04:09 PM	#1
Daydream Collect memories not scars Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Llanelli I am currently:	Is it worth telling her? I've been to see my psychiatrist today after requesting to see her for the first time in about 6 months. My mum came in with me, and I got too scared to talk. My concentration was a bit off (it hasn't been right for a few weeks now) and I wasn't following a lot of what was said. I got upset when I was following and my psychiatrist said that she wouldn't change my medication so close to college. I was upset because I've been asking for a medication change for ages now, and she put my Risperidone up to 2.5mg a day from 2mg, and I'll take the extra 0.5mg in the morning and the 2mg a bit earlier in the evening than I usually do. I didn't get to say what was on my mind, and there was a few things I wanted to say. I wanted to tell her that I tasted the [chemical] that I wanted to kill myself with (she doesn't even know I've been feeling really suicidal) and that I keep making plans to kill myself which keep falling through. I didn't end up saying that if things dont change I might end up coming out of my house in a body bag. I wanted also to tell her I want to take up smoking again, just to have something else to rely on rather than my suicidal and self harming thoughts. She did enquire about my sleeping, which I told her wasn't very good, but nothing is being done about that either (unless I'm taking the Risperidone earlier to help me get more sleepy before i get to bed? Maybe). Is it worth telling her this stuff? Is it important?
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