I am on Amisulpride 200mgx2 qhich helps me SOOOO much exept for the other day when I had a flash image. I know these aren't hallucinations but I had a man who we just called THE MAN as he never told me his name because I wan't good enough to know it. The first time he spoke to me he told me to hit a girl I was having an argument with, but I didn't I was close. Then he went away for a while and came back and said DIE to me. He killed me and I thought I was in a universe where everyone was fake so I would think that I hadn't died. (it's complicated) But I had died. He would tell me to SI. I would smell my own blood on my cat who I thought was special and somehow related to me. I once had to kill myself by a certain day otherwise something would happen to Angel (the cat) but my mum wouldn't let me kill myself but it turns out Angel was fine and it was a false preminition.
In the shower the man was talking to me and suddenly I heard a woman screaming at me.
Ever get that feeling that someone is taking clearly to you but you just can't work out what they are saying to you??? It's wierd.
Oh and I wouldn't drink water because it tasted of metal, all water was poisoned with metal and it was contaminated.
I can't remember everything it was all such a blur when it was bad.
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