Thanks for all the replies.
When my Mother verbally abuses me (she has depression and goes through bouts of this), I have voices that say "kill your Mother", "I command you to kill your Mother now" "if you don't kill your Mother, you will regret ever being born" "your Mother must be exterminated, NOW" and I see the spies across the street, behind my window or down the corridor holding meat cleavers dripping with blood.
The voices:
- Say derogatory things about me.
- Tell me to self-harm.
- Tell me to kill people around me.
- Tell me to set fire to my house.
- Tell me to punch the person in front of me (if I were to punch with full strength, the victim would need facial reconstruction surgery).
- Tell me to obtain illlict drugs and use them.
- Tell me to go back to something which is best not returned to.
And the list goes on, but I don't want to bore you. The voices somehow think I'm a piece of sh*t but somehow simultaneously think that I am competent enough to carry out their commands of violence/self-destruction.
The funny thing is, is when I read a book, they read the words out aloud to me, so reading a book is more like being read to by someone else than anything else.
I also hallucinate people I know when they aren't there.
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