[mizz_devilish]

i don't really know where to start writing this post to be honest but i just need to talk to something since i don't have anyone around me who's there for me. I thought i was ok in fact for a while i was, i didn't injure myself and to be honest didn't even think about it but for the past 3 weeks i have self harmed several times everyday and to be honest i'm starting to worry myself now because i can feel myself getting worse. each time cutting more or deeper and i don't even have the hidden shame there anymore that i used to feel. i used to harm myself and regret it afterwards but now i feel.....nothing.

it's not that i'm really suicidal or anything but i'm not really too keen on living either. i guess i'm just existing at the minute because i can hardly call my life living. Anyway i suppose there isn't really much more i can say so thank you for listening