this thread makes me soooo sad. im so sorry for what you all are dealing with. mixed with my beliefs....i see other things in what you all have said that i wont go into because its controversial. and it breaks my heart.
i have been diagnosed with multiple personality disorder. apparantly i have several alters and im not always aware of them. i often hear voices..especially that of a little boy calling me mommy...and its not mine. its usually late at night when hes sound asleep. i hear footsteps. i see things hovering over me. evil dark shadows that get right in my face and take my breath away. i see dark figures standing at the back of my church. i'll briefly see somebody sit down next to me at church (male figure) and when i look..nobodys there. I feel like I am constantly creating characters to take over for me. MrsEmilyRoseLovett is actually the name I gave this darker more malvolent side of me...that I am mostly aware of, but have no strength to control even though I see her doing things that will ultimately destroy me. I go to counseling, but nobody knows what to do or how to help me.
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