[The Hierophant]

Right, firstly, hi, I haven't been around in like, forever.



Ok.
This is probably going in the wrong place.

I seem to be having issues in my mind with boyshape.
Because his ex girlfriend used to cut herself.
& I feel I can't because of that.

(I do not need lectures on how this might be good for me, I cut myself and I am quite comfortable with that fact, I do not wish to stop, and I do not see it damaging to myself and never have).

But I think the thing that needs addressing here is that I am feeling such an urge to now be as far removed from her (in the case of I'm scared my behavior may be like hers in someway, or that I may become like her)r I seem to be changing who I am.
Or at least that is how it feels.

I actually have no idea what point I'm getting at here.