Thanks everyone for your replies.
That's pretty much what i thought, that she'd tell him.
I think i'm going to have to talk to her anyway. I always feel like i'm being a different person around her, and it's getting hard to keep that up.
In my mind, i think i'm just trying to use him as an excuse to get out it. I flip flop all the time about wether or not I care what he thinks and weather or not I care if he's in my life or not. I hope this isn't the nail in the coffin of our relationship but i'm scared that is will be. Then i'll really feel like it was my fault and that i should have just kept my mouth shut and kept on pretending.
Gahhh... I'm not supposed to care what he thinks, but lately he's been doing this thing where he's nice to me. I hate it, it's kind of wierd, but it's also nice to have a dad for a change. He's done this before, so now i'm just waiting for the crash that always comes when he decides he's done enough for now.
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