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is it wrong that i actually want my boyfriend to sleep with me, as in sleep? sure its all well and good to have 60kg of dog snoring away near me, but i want my man to hold me while i sleep for once.
it cos his mate is staying with us. they stay up all night, playing xbox and smoking. he hits bed at 6am, i generally get up at 7am. he gets up at 3pm, if that, and i'm generally stuffed by then, going to bed at 8. we clean we cook and we watch tv or read.
i feel like i've done something wrong, something to upset him and that he is punishing me by not coming to bed and holding me. am i just insecure?
tonight, i'm at my parents, babysitting their dogs while they are away for the weekend. so i can't do anything about it now.
add to this i'm increasingly random in mood.
not quite coping at the minute.
i'm nervous about hearing from the trainee enrolled nurse trainers. i hope they take me on. i don't know what i'm going to do if they don't.
i'm tired. but i'm not sleepy if that makes sense
i don't know whats going on right now...