[tamobhuuta]

1.What did you think of SI before you even started?
i hadn't 'heard' of SI. it wasn't something that got talked about in school or was on the news, though when i was younger i did know one person who did it.
2.What did you think of the people who did it?
i felt sad. our friendship group were all 10 or 11 at the time, she was saying she was unhappy, hurt herself and wanted to die. i was scared for her but i didn't know how to help, she talked about having trouble with her family. i told a teacher and i don't remember it coming up after that. i wish i'd known how to help her pain.
3.If you have seen SI scars on people, how did you react to them?
only two people, a girl at therapy group and my sister. didn't 'react' to either. at group, it was for SH so it wasn't really anything to react to. inside i felt bad, as if both my SH and recovery were inadequate. and my sister, i didn't say anything. i try not to look at her arms. they're only red marks but they trigger me badly. at first i'd have to go off and cry before i could act normally, now i pretend to myself they're not there. maybe she'd like it if i talked to her, but i can't be that sister.