I hear 4 voices in my head
One is a horrible man who swears at me and is generally horribly abusive towards me, I can drown him out with music sometimes
Another is a horrible man who mocks everything I do and is also abusive towards me (but he doesn't swear as much)
he is quite easy to block out with music as he doesn't get too loud
the third man tells me to kill myself and tells me that I have to die
he is always encouraging me to SI or OD, he can get really loud and hard to ignore, in the past I have SI'd or OD'd to make him go away
the last voice is the scariest, a girl who tells me to stab people and kill everyone, she is obsessed with the idea that everyone is trying to access my thoughts and that I have to stop them by killing them
she scares the sh*t out of me and is very hard to block out or ignore when she starts at me
I have also had visions of blood on my hands and delusional thoughts that I've killed people or that the girl voice has possesed me in my sleep and made me kill people
I have also had weird visual hallucinations of peoples faces melting into walls, stuff like that
Also , when I'm out in public around a lot of people I get the sensation that my stream of conciousness is being accesed by all these people and that they are reading my mind which frightens me also
I was sectioned in June when I was sent to A+E and told them about the voices and since then I've been on Olanzapine(17.5mg) which has helped the voices go away somewhat, but I still get them sometimes which sucks because it scares me
