I'm dealing with kind of the same thing, I just read the reports from the hospital psychs from the last few times I went to the ER. The thing that ****ing pissed me off most was in the last one where it was written kind of as a timeline (he did this, then he did that, then this happened) and it basically says that I went there to get drugs (which I didn't). So when I show the reports to my psych that's how I think he's going to take it. The only thing I have going for me I guess is that I think I trust my pysch enough to believe me when I tell him the reasons that I did go.
I think (especially from your last post) that trust is something that don't put a lot of faith in, since as you say, they're always going to abuse it. I do think though, that this could be a chance for you to really talk with your docs about why they wrote what they wrote, the reasons for it and whatnot, and make them see YOUR side of it. I mean, anything they wrote down came from talking with you and they easily could have gotten the wrong idea about somethings, especially if it was something that wasn't explored in depth. Talking with them will help clear up those issues (and may actually help you get out faster) and will also go a long way in helping yourself.
Good luck, no matter what you do, and keep posting.
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