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discharged
the hospital have discharged me, i am back home. i don't know how i feel about this. it sounds really stupid, but as much as i hate being in hospital, at least i feel safe there, it is kinda like the safe is taken out of my hands, and i don't need to be scared of what i might do to myself, just for that little while.
i know that it wasn't the best think to happen, me getting disharged. justin is very worried, and he is trying to make sure i don't get the opertunity to si, which just make me want to cos i feel under pressure, you know? thats not to say that i am not grateful to him, he is trying his best, he loves me, and he wants me to be safe, and i don't think he fully understands what si means to me and stuff.
my head is all over the place, i don't know what i am thinking most of the time. everything is going on around me, and it is like i am not really here, like i am behind i big thick peice of glass just watching, and not able to get out.
sorry to come here again asking for support, but i don't know where else i can go right now.
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