*hugs*
I understand how hard it is...I've had times in my life where I could have written that exact post myself. You know you need help, but it's SO hard to reach out, so hard to put yourself out there and be vulnerable. Even the simplest confession of having difficulties can feel like you're sharing your deepest, darkest secret. I have often found myself literally shaking at the prospect of sending a message to a friend letting them know what's going on...and then I just can't bring myself to do it. I remember back in high school, promising myself each morning that I would go into the counseling office and make an appointment - but when I got to school, I could never bring myself to open the door.
All that to say...I understand your fear. I understand how hard it is.
But I can also tell you that once you take that first step...once you finally manage to get the words out or send the e-mail...it takes such a burden off you. It's such a relief. And it can give you so much HOPE, just knowing that someone else knows, that you're not alone in this fight.
Like Katie said, your problems are real. And if the first person you tell doesn't believe that...tell another. Just don't give up until you've gotten the help you need, because it's so worth it. You can feel better, you can be happy again, life can be good again. I know it's hard to see it now, but it's true. There are people out there who will understand, and want to help you.
I know it's hard. I know it can feel impossible at times. But don't give up. Keep trying to reach out until the words finally come, until you manage to click the "send" button, or whatever it is. *hugs* You can do it. Keep fighting.
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