Psychedelic Doodle Pop

at the moment I am being seen twice a day by the Home treatment Team and they are lovely, except this morning the nurse who saw me, I gave him a letter I had written (see R&V) about my experiences, and he went mental talking about hospital and sections, and I calmed him down and he's not going to do anything - except they want me to see their doctor asap and the nurse was very threatening saying they would tell if I lied and they may make me go to hospital etc. I'm seeing them again in half an hour, and hopefully the doctor during the early week, but I'm so scared they're going to make me go to hospital. I don't want to be in hospital, I am doing everything I can to cooperate, but it seems there's no way out. I have phoned them everytime I have been about to kill myself, I have told them everything and this seems to have made things worse. My Mum is really upset, they seem to think I have psychossis, which I dont, I am just depressed because of these spirits. And I am so scared about what's going to happen to me, either with teh spirits getting their own way or the HTT doing something to me. What if the spirits are turning everyone against me? I don't know what to do. I shouldn't have involved them, it's just I have become depressed from the spirits. Sorry to post, I hope people are able to reply, I know it's a bit impossible, I'm really sorry, I am just so scared, many of you know I spent a long time in and out of hospital previously and I pretty much gave up on life, and I don't want to go back there.