Hi guys
I have hit absolute rock bottom. I feel uncannily calm planning my end. It all seems so straightforwrd, but I know it won't be for those I leave behind.
I do keep thinking of my children and that has kept me safe so far, but I don't know if it's enough.
I cut myself last night, hoping that it would relieve some of the pressure, but it doesn't feel like it's changed very much, except I now have some new wounds.
I am fighting this as much as I can, but I don't know how much longer I can stop myself.
Sorry to dump this on you all. I know everybody has problems.
Thanks
Susie xx
