[dontcare]

Have just managed to persude them to let me come home!!!
Spent most of the night in A&E - waited for 5 hours before they even looked at my cuts - then they were in a panic to get them stitched as 'it had been too long!' - not my fault!! but I felt ashamed and just wanted to crawl away - it was obvious what they thought and how they judged me.
The nurse didn't even bother to numb the cuts before the stitches - but I didn't care - the pain was what I needed - punishment for being so weak and stupid.
Then I had to wait 3 hours to see the 'crisis team' who dont really want to see you. They wanted me to stay in - but there was no way - I would be worse - I felt like a cornered rabbit.
Managed to say I'd ring them if i needed to and that seemed to be ok - they didn't even say they would contact me - which is ok as I'm not worth it anyway
Going to crawl into bed and hide