Okay. That seems to make sense to me,
I was just wondering if I was going about it the "right" way...
So if I'm not being too bothersome, I have another question.
Because of my refreshed belief (for lack of better words)
I have this acute desire to simply be with God.
And I've never been a patient person...
So (though I know this is an entirely twisted way of thinking)
I've been half-contemplating suicide as the quickest way to be away from this life and back with God.
Am I completely nuts? Or do you at least understand my thinking...?
((I kinda described it better
here))