I'm rather flat at the moment. I've only cut once in about a week (badly, but only once) and I'm being really stupid because I'm mad I didn't cut more! It's not because the urges aren't there, they're there right along with the calm, nondistressing, thoughts and images of suicide, and the general feeling of awful. But I haven't even been able to motivate myself to cut... Or do much of anything...
Sorry, no reason to post this, it's just another rambling, pointless, and it doesn't even make sense.