I'm not too sure why I took the od but I was just so desperate to just get out of here, but it didn't work.
I really dunno if I can live with myself coz of what I have done, but also it's the rest of the crap that has happened. I just feel like I'm at a dead end. I seem to just keep on getting worse. It's nearly a year now I've been self harming, and I remember when I said it wouldn't get that bad. I never used to make myself vomit, but I need to lose the weight...! I just dunno what to do anymore
