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I first started self-harming over a year ago and stopped last april. Then over a month back I started to again. What a big mistake that was, once I had started I didnt want to stop. After telling my mum about it and showing her my arms I managed to stop for a couple of weeks, now its like I go a few weeks then self-harm again. I did it again yesterday after feeling very down, it just seemed to lift me. Basically at the moment I have still got the scars from a month ago, but I dont want them to go completely. I want them to go enough so that I can where a t-shirt out. Today I have been getting the urge to really cut like I when I was doing it a number of times a day. I dont know what I am doing because I want to wear t-shirts, but I also want a release and thats what self-harming does for me. Sorry to go on, I just dont want to let my mum and therapists down.