I have no idea why I feel like this - my life should be perfect, there's nothing actually wrong with it, I'm just a stupid bitch.
And Dad's started being really nice to me now, making me hot chocolate and stuff. Which just makes me hate myself even more - I don't deserve to be treated nicely, or liked by anyone.
I have no idea why, and I really wish I didn't feel this way, but the only thing that makes me feel better is SH, which I can't do deep enough now to make me feel any better because the blade I had went manky, and I can't get any new ones, unless I use a sharp knife from the kitchen, and I am scared that with one of those it would be too easy to go too deep.
Sorry
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