[EdTheHyena]

I'm going crazy! I ran out of my meds my life has gone to hell. Less than 2 weeks ago my 8 yr old sister was sexually assaulted. Ever since my mom told me about that I have been lashing out at my bf (who thankfully understands) but I have also been suffering though flashbacks of my own sexual assaults. Once I was raped by a complete stranger, once I was abducted, taken to a hotel and tried to rape me, 3 yrs ago I was raped on a daily basis for 3 months, and I was in a sexually abusive relationship on and off for 4 years.

The only way I can think to make it stop is to kill myself! I dont want to do that my bf loves me very very much and tried to calm me down and he can't and I just can't stop crying

hugs advice comfort anything just please help