In total I have seen 8 different councellors, 3 psychiatrists and 2 CBT dudes.
And I've been afraid of talking to everyone of them. Saying things out loud is admitting the truth which is scary. I also find it really really hard to verbalise my feeling so that people can understand. After all it's difficult to describe something that has no physical form, something that's just a sensation.
It's important for you to tell your counsellor you feel uncomfortable or unable to discuss directly your reason for your self harm, maybe there is another way he/she can approach the subject so you get to the answers in a more round about comfortable way.
A lot of the time it's just important to keep trying but at the same time you don't want to push yourself so far in the wrong direction if it's too painful for you.
It took me a long time to find someone I felt comfortable with. My current CBT guy is the first person i've actually really opened up to and told the full truth to........ actually that probably not quite true :S ........more truth than I've told anyone else, lets put it that way! :) It's progress at least, gotta keep fighting
LOVE!
Laura
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