[silentgirl]

I am just wondering, Has anyone been scared of counselling? Like, for example, i have dealt with my past by talking about it but it keeps coming back, the flashbacks and the memories of traumatic things that have happened over the past four years.

Also, i find it hard to talk to my counsellor about the reasons behind my self harm. The stupid thing is, that i feel. is that even tho its been nearly four yrs, i feel that something is blocking the reason for me why i started cutting, in the first place to come out verbally or in writing at counselling.

I think im scared of the truth, when i look back at what has happened, i feel small and foolish but at the same time, i dont know why i am in so much fucking pain, why cutting is so fucking addictive or why i cant even talk or cry anymore!!!