Hey,
I can tell you're really overwhelmed right now and you don't know what the best course of action would be to help you through this. Mental health services and medications can be really confusing especially when you're not in your right mind to start with.
From reading your post I think that you should go for CBT as it sounds like you need some talking therapy as people don't seem to listen to you and CBT is a safe place to get everything out and to change your thinking patterns. Also perhaps try the new medication. I don't know much about Diazepam or Betablockers or your reasons for needing them but I believe that they are quite addictive. However antidepressants with therapy can be an effective combination. Focus on your education to distract you and to have something to aim towards. I think that is a really positive thing and helped me to a degree. However don't put too much pressure on yourself. You just have to take babysteps in the right direction and you're already doing that by getting help.
Also if you feel belittled or whatnot don't be afraid to stick up for yourself and if needs be see if you can get a referral to a different psychiatrist.
Take care
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