Originally Posted by
Space-to-Breathe
Hi :)
I can understand what you're saying completely, me and my Others are very close, when I do what I'm told and follow their plans. I don't believe anyone can be "mad" we all work in different ways. Numbers are the way you work, it's what makes sense to you because there are formulas and equations, things can be worked out easily because 1 is always 1 whereas with words 1 can be one whole, one person, one nation. Numbers are easier than words.
Anyway, your friend was very insensitive to say that to you, but in a way she is right hun. Your medication is important to take and I know thay it is a pain in the ass, but I think deep down you know it's important to take too. YOU are the one working out the numbers hun, whatever help they give you it's YOU working it out and coming to the conclusion. Isn't it better to be able to work out those problems yourself rather then have them lead you or tell you the answer? Them leading you to the answer is like working out a maths problem when you've already been given the answer, isn't it more satisfying and better for your all round growth in learning to lean less on their knowledge and lean more on your own? I'm sure, given the chance, you could be much smarter then them all, but if you always lean on their help to get there, are you really working out the problem yourself?
Also lack of sleep and food will wear you down, it'll make your brain function less efficiantly hun. Your body is like a well oiled machine, but if you don't let it cool down or give it fuel to work, it'll burn out.
Sorry if that didn't make much sense or help much, I hope you feel better soon hun.
Xxx
That made sense, thank you.
John, Fred, Alex and the Woman don't really lead me to the answers, they discuss it with me, and the problems I am solving in my head are very challenging in terms of remembering all the bits of information, so they are like my notepad.
I'll try to eat and sleep, but only the minimum that I require, because for me those two things are a distraction from my work.
Your explanation of numbers and words (first para) are very good and I agree completely.
However my medication chemically holds me back, it prevents me from doing what I can do. I am going to refuse all psychiatric medications from now on. Nothing to poison the mind.
John, Fred, Alex and the Woman are all so close to me that I couldn't bear for anyone to take them away. If anyone takes them away, I will kill that person for sure, and I mean it, I will kill that person because that person would take away the best friends I could ever have.
People say they're hallucinations, but they're not. They're real people. Ok, others can't see them, but that's because I am Chosen. I am Chosen to possess these people who can hide their presence from others.
Thanks for the post, it really helped.