thanks for ur replies
my friends and family think im doing loads better, in the past week a friend and my brother have both commented on how much better i seem...i think the longer iv got these problems the better i get at hiding them.
i dont know, i think deep down i know i need some help cus i know where i end up if i leave things but i just dont see the point in asking for help anymore cus it always ends up the same and i always end up back in this place. i had 2 therapists when i was about 15 and iv had 4 therapists while being in the 16-19 service and iv never trusted any of them or been able to open up to any of them properly. i was also on an adult psych ward and been on prozac and citalopram which did nothing for me. i think the fact that im still in the same place i was in 5 years ago even after the help i have been given holds me back.
and then theres all the stuff in my head even if i thought about going to the gp, about how im making something out of nothing and their just gonna think im being really pathetic and making a mountain out of a mole hill.
i think that im scared ill go to my gp and they wont do anything to help...or what they do try just wont help
i dont know...my heads so busy
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