[Asystole]

I'm getting so very sick of this juggling act now. I'm on abilify and escitalopram and I suffer from.. shall we say sexual side effects. I doubt I need to elaborate, look them up if you don't know what i'm talking about. I stopped taking them when I realised the effect they were having on me. Then I felt ****, depressed, paranoid so I started taking them again. Then the side effects begun to get me upset again and ruin potential relationships, so I stopped taking them again.

It's a vicious continuous cycle and I guess I just want advice on what I should do. I hate these side effects but I NEED my medication otherwise I feel terrible.

I'm also on zopiclone for not sleeping, though I don't think this has the same side effects.

On top of that I think when I haven't been taking my meds I've begun hearing things. A voice to be specific. I tried to tell my psychiatrist but said things like "Is the voice inside your head?" which is a very vague question as technically yes, a voice i'm HEARING is inside my head.. isn't it? Anyway now he thinks I mean I was imagining it.

I'm rambling on now. HELP :(