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xbeckyx · 25-06-2008, 08:10 AM

Thank you and that did make sense. See I know you're right but it's hard to really...care. Oh god I sound like a total cow. I dunno, I do care about other people but I think they would be better without me so it's more like doing the right thing for them.

I didn't OD last night, I got my dad to sit with me until I went to sleep. I know if I OD, chances are I'm not gonna get myself to hospital because it hurts my dad so much and tbh it's pointless, as long as I stick near a certain amount and avoid what got me on a drip last time then I'll be okay.

At CAMHS this morning so I might tell him I'm struggling tho there's nothing he can do really =/ the only person who can help me is me and that's terrifying right now.

25-06-2008, 08:10 AM	#9
xbeckyx Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: North Yorkshire	Thank you and that did make sense. See I know you're right but it's hard to really...care. Oh god I sound like a total cow. I dunno, I do care about other people but I think they would be better without me so it's more like doing the right thing for them. I didn't OD last night, I got my dad to sit with me until I went to sleep. I know if I OD, chances are I'm not gonna get myself to hospital because it hurts my dad so much and tbh it's pointless, as long as I stick near a certain amount and avoid what got me on a drip last time then I'll be okay. At CAMHS this morning so I might tell him I'm struggling tho there's nothing he can do really =/ the only person who can help me is me and that's terrifying right now.
xbeckyx Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: North Yorkshire	See I cannot feel this, not matter how you try and in the real world, there's no goodbyes. Stare at the hands, you know you want to ;). "memento vivere"