I am actively suicidal right now - what should I do?
If you are actively suicidal and you feel you might act on your urges to commit suicide
- you need to get help. You need to speak out and let someone know what is going on in your head, and let people know that you need support.
Please
tell someone as soon as possible how you are feeling. It is important you speak to someone regarding these thoughts. Please do not delay this. Call your doctor, or psychologist/counsellor or a
local help line, or your local emergency number (eg. 911). You could also speak to a trusted adult regarding these feelings to get you more support, and another option is to take yourself (or have someone go with you) down to A&E if you are feeling particularly unsafe.
If you can,
try not to be alone. Sit with family or friends when you are feeling like you might act on your thoughts, or ring someone and try and have a conversation to keep yourself occupied. Not being alone is important because it allows you to remove the opportunity to act on your thoughts.
Keep anything that could be used as a method away from you as much as possible.
Try and stay in a safe environment, and protect yourself from if you become impulsive. I know you're feeling down and you might not want to protect yourself from these feelings, but remember suicide won't solve your problems, and right now you're under a lot of stress so your thinking may be impared by that.
You can get through this. Remove anything that you have planned you could hurt yourself with and put them somewhere out of reach, or, completely destroy them (i.e. pills into a toilet.)
Try and
keep yourself distracted doing positive things and letting out your emotions in positive ways, such as writing or speaking with people. Try not to engage with the thoughts of suicide and not to entertain them as much as they want to be, remember to protect yourself. You can make a post on the forums asking for some support and advice too, as sometimes it can be very hard to do some of these things when you're feeling in such a state.
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Remember: these feelings will pass.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Please speak out and get the help and support you need and deserve right now. I know it might be scary, but it is very much worth it and you can do it.