i have crumbled.
Kaleb(4 years old) just told me hated me
TWICE!!!!
what have i done?????
all ive EVER done is love these kids!!!!
try to help them....bdays...christmas and EVERY other day!!!!!!!
all i want is to run to my son. i miss him so god awful. he has been through HELL and still he has gratitude...politeness...compassion...generosity.. .and LOVE. i miss him soooo much.
here i am trying to help with these kids and they just "spit" in my face or so it seems. i miss my little boy so much.
i dont know how to do this anymore.
i am in complete love with Kelly....but what about ME????
how do i take care of ME in this situation????
i only want to be a mother to my son. these kids are the epitamy of ungratefulness....
i just dont understand. i cant comprehend it. i try soooooo hard.
i love them. i want to help them. but it blows up in my face.
i have no clue as to why this little 4 year old boy would say he hates me.....
i may need hospital after all......cant stand this much longer. its making me ill. its making me regress. i dont want to fall anymore....