Well, this thread is at least good for getting stuff out I suppose.
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I'm grateful to my supervisor for finding me some work at my job with uni dining. That said...
The guy I had sex with last summer (*cough* my first and only time *cough*) is working there this summer as well. I see him multiple times a day.
Now before y'all think it; he didn't rape me, it was consensual. However I was REALLY drunk (to the point of almost passing out). And now every time I think about I feel... Ashamed or embarrassed, I'm not sure... Maybe both. Seeing him so many times in a day... Well when I see him it makes me feel awful. Multiple times today when I saw him I wished to die, thought about slitting my wrists. I know it's unreasonable and that my reaction to him is an OVER reaction... But that's the way it is. I know it's stupid as it's not like it was rape or anything... My fault, I was WAY too drunk... I think it was even my idea...
So what is this uncomfortable reaction?
Must be guilt. My fault...
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