I think my mom might know about my SI. I'm not ready for that... I'm not ready for her reaction. It'll either be disappointment or apathy... and I can't deal with either of those, I just can't.
The worst part about this is I am so afraid of this that it's making it really hard not to cut... and I just want to, so much... but that's kind of counterproductive, isn't it? It's so frustrating.
If my mom does ask about it, how do I respond? What do I do?