yeah that makes sense, and no he hasnt done anything like that.
he has asked me to write in the sessions before but i couldnt do that either, or draw. ugh its my fault he cant help me.
if he discharges me then my mum and dad will think im better and that everything is fine and i doubt they would take me to see someone else. and i dont think id be able to go to the doctors and ask by myself because i would freeze again. ='[ im so pathetic.
my mum is always moaning at taking me there because she has to miss work sometimes so she would be happy if i didnt go anymore.
im obviously not the most important thing to her.
im just the failure of the family.
and my dad is just horrible, when i was having a bad day he started trying to make me feel sorry for him cuz he didnt know what to do. all i wanted was to be by myself.
so they will be happy if im discharged.
maybe its best for everyone else if i am?
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