thanks so much for the replies =]
i guess i might not be ready for help yet, but i thought i was before i asked. maybe its because when i asked everything moved so fast, people telling my mum and then the doctors then camhs and i had no control over anything and i wasnt even asked if i wanted to go to the doctors or camhs, i was forced to. i mean i do want to go there it just all happened so fast, does that make sense?
and i really do want help and i have been trying my hardest and doing everything he tells me to do. its just so frustrating.
i dont know what else i can do to help myself, i really dont.
well apart from talking which i try so so hard to do i just cant.
i dont know why, i want to, i really do, its just it cant physically say anything, the words are there but they wont come out, i wish i could talk i just dont know how.
='[ i feel so pathetic, like im not helping myself, but i really dont know what else to do =|. argh.
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