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sorry to be posting, i dont deserve any replies cuz im so useless and never help anyone.
im so useless i cant even help myself. and now im so useless that my psychologist from camhs is gunna give up on me.
he said he cant help me if i dont invite him into my life and start talking. but i cant. i just freeze and cant talk. and now hes giving up on me.
i mean hes a professional and he should be able to make me feel better right? well why cant he? i just want to give up for good.
whats the point in trying because i know damn well i cant do this by myself and now im not gunna have anyone to try and help me.
maybe he hates me and wants me dead?
maybe thats why he told me its ok to si and purge.
yeah maybe i should please him and everyone else and just give up.
i have been trying the very hardest i can and nothing has changed.
i am weak.
i cant even make myself happy.
i need someone to help me do it. but the one person i have is giving up on me and now i dont know what to do.
sorry i dont expect and replies cuz i know there is nothing you can do cuz im so useless, and also because i dont help anyone else and dont deserve and help myself.
so sorry for wasting your time and space
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