[Duffer44]

Ok im really struggling to fight my urges and i keep finding myself picking up my tools and cutting myself, i've had mor contact from my mum which seems to hold alot of the root pains in causing me to be so depressed but it dosent help with these voices in my head encouraging me to do that little bit more that i am a complete failre and my mum is the one that proves it ive let her down my whole life there fore i am due to let everyone down and i am begining to see there right.

i have a shrink who is good bu i cant cope with what he's making me remember its upsetting me and making me sink down when i hoped it would pull me out. He's reffering me to the community mental health team he says hey will be in touch then come to my house but i dont know anything about what they do.

im just scared and feel alone i know im not i have a girlfriend i love alot and she loves me but it dosent stop m feeling this way