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Steel Maiden · 16-06-2008, 04:40 PM

I'm so sorry for not opening up properly. I just didn't want to make you upset. I promise I'll open up properly from now on. I've been brought up not to talk too much about my problems with other people. Sorry. =(
The voices are still bad, which is making revision hard.
The Woman is still around and I wanted to OD so badly today that I actually had physical symptoms of a procyclidine OD without actually taking any pills. I wish I hadn't given the HTT my procyclidine. I wish I still had it. I would OD on it right now. All I have in the medicine cupboard is painkillers and my meds. I don't want to OD on my meds because I've seen someone else do it and the effects are ghastly.
I am having my last exam on the 19th and that will be the last day I ever properly go to school. My school have supported me through the whole 7 years I was there. They got personally involved in my life and did everything they could to help me. The school nurse (who is an angel) even personally took me to A&E in her car when I took an overdose. NOW I HAVE TO LEAVE SCHOOL FOR EVER.
The CMHT will see me once a freaking month so basically I'm left to my own devices starting from next week.
I feel so unsafe, if I had my procyclidine with me, the bottle would be empty by now.
Perhaps OD-ing on painkillers is a good idea...even if it means that I'll be in agony for two days...I probably deserve it.

16-06-2008, 04:40 PM	#5
Steel Maiden There is no place like 127.0.0.1 Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: London	I'm so sorry for not opening up properly. I just didn't want to make you upset. I promise I'll open up properly from now on. I've been brought up not to talk too much about my problems with other people. Sorry. =( The voices are still bad, which is making revision hard. The Woman is still around and I wanted to OD so badly today that I actually had physical symptoms of a procyclidine OD without actually taking any pills. I wish I hadn't given the HTT my procyclidine. I wish I still had it. I would OD on it right now. All I have in the medicine cupboard is painkillers and my meds. I don't want to OD on my meds because I've seen someone else do it and the effects are ghastly. I am having my last exam on the 19th and that will be the last day I ever properly go to school. My school have supported me through the whole 7 years I was there. They got personally involved in my life and did everything they could to help me. The school nurse (who is an angel) even personally took me to A&E in her car when I took an overdose. NOW I HAVE TO LEAVE SCHOOL FOR EVER. The CMHT will see me once a freaking month so basically I'm left to my own devices starting from next week. I feel so unsafe, if I had my procyclidine with me, the bottle would be empty by now. Perhaps OD-ing on painkillers is a good idea...even if it means that I'll be in agony for two days...I probably deserve it.
	PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10 or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student. I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out. I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included. Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.