There is this girl at work. She is doing temp work with us. She seemed really upset on Friday in the morning, and I told her "Honey, if you need anything at all, you know where my desk is"
At about eleven she came over to my desk, bawling her eyes out "Please, i need to talk to someone"
I took her out side and we sat down on the ground. She was so amazingly upset, and kept crying and crying. She felt so hopeless, felt like nothing would help. She had nothing, noone liked her, her own family doesn't even like her, things will never get better "I just want to die"
I couldn't help myself when she said that. I just said "No, you don't" I know that seems like a very wrong thing to say, but I just panicked, like I always do when someone is feeling suicidal, but I'm such a hypocrite.
I talked to her, told her that counselling would help. She said she was on AD that helped alot, but then she panicked that she would be on them forever, so went off them. I explained that they are just a crutch, like when you have a broken leg. The crutch just helps you along while the leg heals. I encouraged her to re-connect with her friends. She really needs friends right now. That seemed to sink in cause she ended up going and having lunch with a friend and came back much better. I checked up on her for the rest of the day, and made sure she had my mobile number just in case she needed someone to talk to or see.
I did a good thing. I really helped her. But I don't understand, why has this left me feeling so hollow?
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