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Thank you for reiterating what I'm hearing from those supportive people around me. I have to work at getting my head round the fact that they are both grown up and independent now but there is still a place in their lives for me.
It's so hard to explain to anyone but for 10 years I've been battling with the boys as my main focus for getting through each day. The goal was to be supportive in getting them through school and university and I felt as today grew closer that something dreadful was going to happen to me. The boys are my life and I thought it would end because they are independent and working now. I have to think of a new role now which will be just as demanding but in a different way. Today has been tough as we waited for his results but he's passed and will graduate as a vet in a couple of weeks. I'm so proud of him as I am my older son who is a doctor. Its just with them being so successful I often feel quite inadequate but tonight my older son came home and I told him how I was feeling and he said they wouldn't have coped without my support so that was lovely.
I'll sit and think and work at my new role and try to stop thinking my life as a mother is over.