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I-Feel-Infinite · 10-06-2008, 09:49 PM

i have to say definitely not count.....
coz once i count I REMEMBER about SI-ing..... like i'm suddenly thinking about it.... then i think about how i need it etc etc.....
whereas if i didn't count i'll think about how i've given up - and that's it...
and one day i'll just stop thinking about giving up and it'll become natural
and then one day i can say i gave up....
if that made any sense!
and counting - to me i'll always think "oh i've only been 3 days free... well then i can do it.... 3 days can easily be reached again and i'll go from there"

10-06-2008, 09:49 PM	#41
I-Feel-Infinite Jess ~♥ Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Wiltshire, UK I am currently:	i have to say definitely not count..... coz once i count I REMEMBER about SI-ing..... like i'm suddenly thinking about it.... then i think about how i need it etc etc..... whereas if i didn't count i'll think about how i've given up - and that's it... and one day i'll just stop thinking about giving up and it'll become natural and then one day i can say i gave up.... if that made any sense! and counting - to me i'll always think "oh i've only been 3 days free... well then i can do it.... 3 days can easily be reached again and i'll go from there"
	As a little kid you believed in fairytales, that fantasy of what your life would be: white dress; prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You closed your eyes and had complete and utter faith. Eventually you grow up. One day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairytale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.